It sucks knowing that I’m not the only one you call baby…

I feel so empty right now, I don’t know what to do. Just knowing you have all these girls, rips me to pieces. I’m in so much pain but that is besides the point… I wanna make love to you again, i miss having you here for me. I miss your arms around me, it hurts so bad. I miss your soft kiss. The conversations, everything. When you told me yesterday you want to make love to me again I almost cried. I’m not whole anymore, you took my heart with you. I Love You with everything in me and I always will. I wish I could just hear you breath. I wish everything could go back to normal… God please,  make everything ohkay again. <3

It started out okay then when to shit as soon as I got home. Someone’s mad at me, I’m agrueing with someone else an on top of that my ex is engaged! Like what the hell… All I wanted was to see one of my close guy friends and I am staying the night at his house and you flip your shit. Home slice we aren’t even official. I told you and didn’t lie. Like you did. Hot damn. Ugh, I can’t wait for thursday. :) I’m stoked.

christopherdeanbowling:

Im going insane.

Stop it.

(Source: demise-of-my-heart)

I know I’m a hard to handle sometimes, and I know I make some bad mistakes. You are right we were a perfect couple, we are just a bad situation. I do miss you, so much. I miss having you there to talk to about everything, I miss spilling my heart out to you. But I know just being away is just what is best for me.. It hurts it does, I try not I think about us and just keep moving forward. But nights like this is when it hits the most. Not having you here, not being to tell you the simple things of “I hit a deer yesterday and a fucking possum today” which it did actually happen and I cried both times and I wanted to call you so bad but I couldn’t. I can’t do that to myself and it sucks that I have to fight it right now. So the easiest way to get everything out is on here. Because I don’t have to worry about someone bitching at me for thinking about you. I will always Love you. ALWAYS. But it’s best we both get going with our life’s without one another for now. Hopefully one day we will run into each other and tell one another our dumb mistakes and our adventures since we’ve been gone. Just know I do miss you, but this is what I have to do.